To me, a Superhero is someone who invites her wisest, bravest, most alive self to come out and play, every day. This doesn’tmean having all the answers, being unshakably strong, or performing dramatic feats of heroism. It means being someone like you – and someone like me. Someone who is anxious and uncertain, oh, say, 50 – 80% of the time. Someone who wants tolive a juicy, full, courageous life — but doesn’t always know how. Someone who understands that vulnerability just might be the greatest superpower of all.
So, I made a leap this week, guys and wow, it didn't feel the way I thought I would feel.
I thought it would feel awesome and exciting. Instead it felt full of anxiety and uncertainty.
In fact, I spent a good deal of time crazy texting my good friend Carlene, basically asking her to hold me as I fell into a million confused and fragmented pieces.
She told me to get real. (Good friends are so awesome.)
And then she sent me the quote above, and I cried.
So, what was the leap? I bought a professional fine art quality printer.
It was a big leap. Like expensive leap, and OMG you have to actually make product and put your heart and soul on display and actually own up to this creative life you WANT. SO. BAD. kind of leap.
Ya, that.
You know, no big deal.
When I brought the printer home and told my husband, he looked at me and said, "Ok, well, I guess we better get you a better work space."
And then he toiled and hammered and worked through the long weekend (as he was contracting a "man-cold" I might add) and built me this:
It's not fancy, but it's functional and I LOVE IT!!
Good husbands are so awesome.
And now, I'm not freaking out so bad. I've cooled the jets on the pricetag and told myself over and over that this is what you have to do to get to where you need to go.
You push, you leap, you do.
Sometimes you don't ask permission, you just effing do the thing you want to do. Sometimes you gotta get the hell outta your own way and quit freaking out already so you can clear your path to a better life.
Sometimes, you lean on the ones you love, you spend the money, you stop making excuses, you stand up on the shoulders of the dear hearts that love you, and you fricking. make. the. jump.
Into your future.
Into your life.
So that's what I did. And, finally, my heart is welcoming the uncertainty by encircling it in a whole shitload of joy.
I'm feeling mightly blessed and brave these days. And I have so many to thank for boosting me up along the way.
Thank you to every person who has done their part to help me get here. Whether you ordered art from me, or read this blog, or support me in life, over tarot cards, over drinks, and over texts, or told me you were inspired by what I do.
Every gesture, each moment, and all the words that encouraged me to keep moving forward has been forever written on my heart. I am a lucky, lucky human to know so many beautiful people.
Stay tuned for some sweet new developments in the near future. Can't wait to share my new products and artworks.
Happy Tuesday friends.
Now you found your words!
I ♡ u, and I am so proud of you for reaching towards your goals.
Now, if we vould just get our schedules to mesh so we can all actually see each other :)
Posted by: Renyen | 11/12/2013 at 06:52 AM