I recently met a nice woman who told me all about her life plan.
She's 42, has two young children, a full-time secure (READ: government) job with a great pension plan, a husband who owns his own business of which, she does the bookeeping. Busy, high-energy, no-nonsense woman. She has planned her entire life out--from her career to her retirement plan to her home buying plan to her children/family plan. She'll be mortgage free in six years and her children will be beginning the early stages of puberty then. She'll be able to retire with full pension in four and have time to spend being mom.
Wow.
The entire time she's telling me her life story I'm thinking: I haven't had a plan at all! Everything up to two years ago, basically just happened to me! I went with the flow of life and life happened. In fact, the only plan I have ever held concrete in my heart and mind was to be an artist. That's right-- I did not plan to be a mother or a wife or a homeowner. I didn't visualize that stuff AT ALL! *
I envisioned myself as an artist. That's it.
Funny story: as this nice woman told me all about her life, I couldn't help thinking, in my small mind, "I couldn't possibly tell her that my plan is to be an artist." In comparison to her story, it sounded so lame and non-important and too wishy-washy, and besides, I'm almost 37. Time's up baby.
Ha!
What crazy things our minds can do.
Of course, when I returned home and reflected on this, I realized that the thought processes I endured in the midst of this woman's story were part of my SMALL MIND. The part that harbours fear-based concerns. The space that believes the stories of others and holds them in reverence to my own. The place that does not honour my soul or my dreams or the work I was designed to do here on earth.
Ahhh. What a relief.
It's never too late to be who you want to be.
*I should tell you that when I met and got serious with Jason, we DID plan out the family and home-buying. However, I didn't plan this as a young person. I dreamed of art (still do).
Also: I did decide when my brother and sister were small that I would NOT have more than two children. So THAT, I DID plan!
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