Oof.
This week.
I have been meaning to get to this space all week, but honestly, there has been no energy left in me when I've had the spare moments to do that.
Not that it's been extra crazy-busy, but my energy is low, and that is normal for me at this point in the month--ladies, you hear me right? But on top of that is the full moon energy, and that is sincerely sucking the life right out of everyone in this home.
My daughter has been affected when it comes to sleep. Since birth that one has NOT been a sleeping child. Oh, she has improved significantly in the past year, but STILL there are nights where she is disturbed in sleep and we ALL FEEL IT. As in, she is vocally indicating her discomfort. As in, she loudly talks and cries out in her slumber.
She is not awake, but obviously, she's not fully sleeping either as she screams "NOOOOO, STOOOOOP" over and over and over.
Oy.
So, yeah, last night was the third night of this, and truly, when I look back over the years, full moon energy is the common denominator.
Oh, but it hasn't been all bad.
This week, we enrolled the boy (teenager, almost adult) in an alternative school where the student body numbers no more than 150 and the ratio of teacher to student is 1 to 2.
Bam! Just like that my boy is in love with learning again!
I'll admit, I wasn't crazy about the idea when he brought it to me. When I was in high school, this program was new and it basically was for the kids who were getting kicked out: of home, of school , of society...so no, I wasn't thrilled.
However, my boy who has suffered with anxiety and depression and would NOT advocate for himself when I stood there and repeated to him: WHATEVER YOU NEED, JUST TELL ME, WE WILL DO THAT FOR YOU, was finally speaking up for himself. He did his research (talked to friends) and so I did mine (Googled it) and we met in the middle.
On Monday we ventured up to the school and boy, it sure has changed since my day, when my friends were enrolled ( and skipping out).
It's a sweet little community now where you feel welcome the moment you walk in. You get the sense of calm and nuturing kindeness. A far cry from the "business-like" feel I would get walking into Kelsey, his old high school.
He started on Tuesday and when he was done he texted me: "That was the best day of school I've had ever"
And my mama's heart blossomed with joy.
My boy is coming back.
Happy Thursday everyone. It's the full moon today, so tread lightly, although most of that oddball energy with be starting to fade now. And maybe, I will get a solid night sleep tonight. Oh, the luxury!
Have a good one!