It is the new moon on a Monday evening and March is fully engaged and happening. This year of 2013 is barrelling quickly down the track toward summer and I am nowhere close to the place I imagined myself to be at this moment. Instead, I am on an intense journey of discovery, still tripping through electric fences and getting caught up on thorny wires from time to time.
But, nonetheless, I feel blessed to be going through the big messes and coming out the other side with an arsenal of life lessons in my artillery. I feel somehow content to know the pain of deep, deep hurt because when it disappears, pure love pours in and fills its place, which is a beautiful thing to behold.
On this new moon Monday evening I feel inclined to jot down a few simple things about my home, family and private world that I want to work toward making better in the coming month.
When I think of how I can improve my home, family and private life I feel a strong sense of contentment. Meaning, that in order to make the home and family life work smoothly, I have to operate from a center of contentment. Knowing my children and husband are safe and healthy, spending time with family and friends, making art, enjoying nature, having a simple yet beautiful home which is comfortable and uncluttered. These things bring me joy and contentment and I want to experience them more often so I can feel more content and have more grace and tenderness in my everyday connections.
Spending more time on art to fill the walls of my home, saving money to buy items I love which will make my home feel like a home (as opposed to a house) and collecting items from nature when we spend days together outdoors as a family, are all the ways I intend to nurture contentment in my heart so that as I navigate the debris in the river, along the path, through the fences, and over the thorny branches I am better equipped to do it with grace. I want to be graceful, tender, kind, compassionate and strong in my daily transactions. I want to feel content.
When you think of the way you want to feel and what you want your life to look like what comes to mind? How do you want to feel?
Soon, I will have more exciting art to share. I've been holding back with sharing a bit this month because it started to feel vulnerable and because it also started to lose the excitement once pieces were shared before they were finished. I don't know if I will continue this trend or if I will start sharing again once my life starts humming along in a more normal pace, but for now as I tumble through the weeds, I am keeping my work close to home. Maybe I need to hold my artwork babies close right now, so I can help my heart bear the weight of transitioning a child into adulthood.
Happy Wednesday.
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