Tuesday marked the beginning of my personal New Year.
It was my birthday and according to the internet, it was a divinely perfect day to launch NEW & BIG & AMAZING ideas and prjoects and dreams and prayers.
Naturally, I am compelled to sit in reflection and stillness to take it all in and be in awe of the wonder that life is.
I feel blessed.
Looing back on the year I have just come through, I can honestly say that I feel SO AMAZED that I stand here today in reverance and awe of life and love. I am truly surprised that I feel so grateful when I had so many hard and difficult moments--as a mama and as a human--throughout the past 365 days.
There were moments I felt SUNK and to think of those dark times, it feels miraculous to be standing here today in so much LIGHT. But, here I am and LIGHT is how I feel.
Looking back, I remember moments thinking "How am I going to do this?"
I had a lot of uncertainty, but a desperate hope for better.
I had a lot of fear, but a tenacious drive for freedom.
There was some deep dips into sadness, with a tremendous yearning for JOY.
At the end of all those moments, I reminded myself to look past any negativity and stare hard at the light.
I prodded myself to Be Brave. To love myself and to love the process. To look for the lessons and keep learning.
To never give up.
So, now, as I go forward, there is so much behind me, there is so much that has passed and will forever remain in the past.
I now go into this new year (as I stare down the everlooming barrel of THE BIG FOUR-ZERO) with a exorbitant amount of courage, light, love and tenacity.
I have a power that I didn't realize was mine all along. And it feels damn good, I have to say.
In celebration, and to start my NEW YEAR off right, I have decided to begin a year long art challenge called PROJECT 52.
In this year, I will post one new piece of artwork each week on my blog, facebook, instagram and twitter. There will be no rules, other than the pieces are new works and there must be one post per week for a total of 52 weeks. Hence, the name Project 52. Clever, right?
The goal, obviously, is to challenge myself to be creative enough to make one new piece each week and brave enough to share it, imperfections and all.
I figure if I want to grow this dream of mine I better work hard and share my toils. No more keeping it all to myself.
And to kick it off, I have three new pieces that I will reveal over three days ( the number 3 is sacred and divine for me, it has a lot of meaning in my life) and each will be available in my Etsy shop as a print.
These new pieces are each significant to the journey I just travelled this year, each a sacred prayer which propelled me forward through rapid growth.
Thanks to all of you who have come here to read about my journey and to those who are joining me now. There is sometimes a hesitation inside of me to share my heart so openly here, as Ego tends to deter this kind of thing, but I've learned that my heart must lead the way and I am so humbled and honoured when you dear friends reach out and tell me that you connect to my story in some way.
I believe this is the whole point to life.
We go through it and we love and we hurt and sometimes we feel connected by an invisible string, heart to heart, and we feel, even if just for a minute, that we too, are worthy of love and support.
That is why I let my heart lead.
Please check back later today to see the first installment of PROJECT 52. And, maybe I will even have a logo designed for the project...who knows?
Thanks, friends. Happy Thursday! (wow, Thursday, already?)
XOXO