I've been absent for a spell, but I'm working on finding a groove to get back to blogging and continue to tell my story because to tell the truth, I've been aching to be here. So many thoughts, ideas, memories...stories to tell. So much process and elimination to ruminate on.
We're counting down to summer break from school (finally!) and I think that the lack of scheduled activities will free up a smidge of time so I can make blogging part of a regular habit. I'm currently on a bit of a "life" schedule and routine spree so I'm going to see how scheduling and planning blog posts ahead of time might work out for me.
We'll see. So far, nothing in 2013 has gone according to plan, but I get that the Universe is still pushing me through a big growth session and forcing me to learn patience. So, it will be what it will be.
Speaking of 2013, I gotta say that so far its been full of transformation and soul growth for me.
I've just spent a period of time going through what I like to call "sucking my soul through a pinhole and see how it fairs" period and let me tell ya...it was painful.
Parenting two children who are so polar opposite and far from each other in life experience is tough. Parenting a teen is hard. Parenting a teen who is hyper sensitive, whille being a hyper sensitive parent yourself is downright insane, at times.
All of this and more has got me feeling like my heart and soul are being wrung through the heavy duty cycle for some intense cleansing.
But crazily enough, I've been able to observe the intricacies of my "soul growth" and understand with full awareness what was happening and why. First. Time. Ever.
Pretty amazing stuff. Not easy, but amazing and profound.
I can't really explain or begin to share any wisdom on this as I am still pondering it and trying it out for myself, but I can say that I feel as though a moulting has occurred and I am moving into a place where I am more free to be me and better able to understand why I do what I do, why I am called by the art of storytelling and what it means for this one soul life that I am living. I feel I am moving toward parenting my children from a place of understanding rather than fear (which is scary and full of fear), but important and decidedly better.
I feel I'm heading to a place where my art becomes what it is meant to become. That my vision and ideas about what it means to be human living on the earth can be expressed in the way and with the tools I want to express them.
I am a storyteller; this is my calling.